有朋自远方来

昨天和Project Manager聊过，过去一个星期去了ISSS很多次，美国大使馆很详细的email 让那很麻烦的VISA 手续比较organized了一点
是的，我7月回去新加坡做Intern，公司是Emerson，5个月朝9晚6的上班身涯即将开始。

前天庆祝完月玲的生日后回到家已经是凌晨整1点，在FB看到佳瑜的Niagara Falls 照片赫然地问她是不是还在Buffalo, 然后佳瑜讲她竟然就在离我家不到5分钟的comfort Inn, 二话不说马上开车出门去载她和她老弟。去了Denny's, 半夜三点在UB走走，然后还去Niagara Falls等日出。
佳瑜一点都没变，还是老样子。不过健谈好聊很多，哈哈。

聊很多人和事，很久不见地一直从天黑聊到天亮，听到小弟说以后想当警察的愿望还是挺佩服的。7点送他们回酒店后，回到家一睡就到12点半，起来赶快进lab做research去。
可惜他们和旅行团风尘仆仆地只在这里呆半天。

有朋自远方来，不亦乐乎？

Tolang lah Abang

“You help me, I help you. Two of the Datuk’s seated over there whispered to me and asked if I could help solve the flooding problem here. I will do for you in Sibu what I did for the people of Ulu Klang, Selangor [where BN won another by-election last month.] I kept my promise to give them three million Ringgit for a Chinese school if BN won the election. We won on Sunday. The cheque was made out on Monday. I delivered the cheque on Wednesday. I honour my commitments. I can solve your flood problem. How much do you need? Oh! It’s five million now? Okay. Five million. You give me Robert Lau, I give you five million. It doesn’t cost you any money. It will cost me five million. Do we have a deal? I am the people’s Prime Minister."
"Boleh ke?"
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Gotcha!

Funny ke?

I wonder who on earth he hired to write the speech, his wife or inherited Mr.Baaadawiii's speech writer?
He wiped away the spit and the sweat of his pudgy chubby face many times. I believe he was trying to tell people that they must help him first before he can help them. Come on, why don't give us some tears there?
Initially, I wanted to add Obama's inauguration speech in this post. But I think I should never spoil a great speech here by comparing with the 'You Help me I Help You' syarahan.

If money cannot get votes, what do you have left?
They never know that what lies ahead us, just simply the honesty, efficiency and stop the freaking corruption.

"Honesty is such a lonely word. Everyone is so untrue. Honesty is hardly ever heard. And mostly what I need from you"- Billy Joel

跑

韩剧的结局，女主角会得癌症去世，然后男主角在雪中痛哭。
港剧的结局，男女主角快乐地在一起．．．喝下午茶。
美剧的结局，就是没有结局，因为有next season.
台湾偶像剧的结局，和第一集一样，仍然在爱来爱去，暧昧不清。
日剧的结局，通常比较唯美， 往往有点没有完的感觉，然后出EP(特别场）再把故事说完。

我非常选择性地看电视剧，只追Fringe,现在戏入高潮，很有再看好莱坞大片的感觉。我没有看Lost,不过据说看的人没有一个不Lost的，好在Fringe很快进入重点，而且剧情还有很多可以挖和探索的，不枉我打从她开始就追到现在。
我上一次看的港剧应该０６年的《天涯侠医》，韩剧和台湾偶像剧就不用说了，浪费生命。

上次看的Mr.Brain 和这几天看的《求婚大作战》都很不错。
日剧唯美是唯美，不过总是会传达一些message,像这剧就是要说把握现在比改变过去有用。
《求》拖了点，不过每次山下智久回到过去为了女主角一直在跑，有时不禁会心一笑，也曾经干过类似的事。
不过每次都扮cool不讲出来搞到Rei完全不知道，一直差一点点，也太过考验观众耐心了。
看的时候，看女主角就好像在看罗文祺一样，有够像。
Rei那句　“我的下半生就拜托你了。”　这句很有杀伤力。拖了半天，最了解对方的有情人最后还是一起了。

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明天开始research, 这次做的是phase2 的工作，上次完成了biodegradable nanoparticle的synthesis, 那天和professor 还有师兄聊了后，了解了整个方向。Lab 买了一些drug, 所以现在的phase 2 会把上次的nanoparticle和drug一起synthesis, 就是希望在drug delivery 上面有点突破。
相比上次的一知半解，这次一开始就知道方向，也有点经验，会比较Interesting.
也还要继续follow up interns.

Classic I

Sean Maguire:
"If I ask you about women, you'd probably give me a syllabus about your personal favorites. You may have even been laid a few times. But you can't tell me what it feels like to wake up next to a woman and feel truly happy.

You're a tough kid. And I'd ask you about war, you'd probably throw Shakespeare at me, right, "once more unto the breach dear friends." But you've never been near one. You've never held your best friend's head in your lap, watch him gasp his last breath looking to you for help. I'd ask you about love, you'd probably quote me a sonnet.

But you've never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell. And you wouldn't know what it's like to be her angel, to have that love for her, be there forever, through anything, through cancer. And you wouldn't know about sleeping sitting up in the hospital room for two months, holding her hand, because the doctors could see in your eyes, that the terms "visiting hours" don't apply to you.

You don't know about real loss, 'cause it only occurs when you've loved something more than you love yourself."



p/s: Randomly crashed on this video on Youtube again. Once in awhile, a movie comes out with great scenes that actually teaches you something. its really rare. Robin Williams is pure class.

我在乎

我上星期决定退出varsity intern，不去卖书了。
因为当申请越多的intern后，才发现自己的technical东西越少。
对Kevin 和Alan来说，我是一把从背后插进去的刀子，因为他们从来没想过结局会是这样。
把Varsity 当备胎，这是一个不负责任的行为，尤其是在已经准备就绪的时候。
说再多抱歉也没用，但，会是一个很好的lesson.　因为觉悟太迟，所以不会再有下次了。

找好Prof谈好research，仍在申请intern，我已经到了那种google energy公司，打电话去问他们有没有要请intern的地步了。
决定留了下来，有了些A plan, B plan. 不管怎样都不会浪费宝贵summer.
反正问一问也不会死huh?

我觉得只有在乎的东西，可能才会真正去争取。
我们熬了很多个夜晚，做出来的report, 因为那个顾问教授说的：performed badly during meeting, 我们４个的整个overall grade掉了２个半。

We always respect Professor Lockett and I simply don't know how would he defined that 'we performed badly in the meeting' as that simply too hurt. Let's see, our group and Prof Lockett met 3 times throughout the whole semester, and each takes ~ 15 minutes(we are the only two groups that have to share a 30 min time slot in the whole class),and sometime we just couldn't have anytime to ask any
question as the time was up. I don't think this is making any sense or fair to judge our attitude on the project at this point.

这是我很热血回复Professor Tzanakakis mail 的其中一段，也没有想过可能他不爽直接就fail我还是怎样。
他还说我们的cost analysis不实际，相比其他几组，搞笑的是，他们那天才金牌教授才说我们全班人，没人的cost analysis make sense. 如果你只是不敢推翻那个拿过国家科学金牌顾问教授的grade, 那别拿其他理由来推搪？Just say it, 要不听的人会觉得很可笑。
Eric 讲，反正他也不会改grade，不过我就是要让他知道。
是的，尽管最后出来还是一个freaking C。这至少让他明白，我们认真过，还有，不要随便做conclusion.

而又，上星期打去了Life Tech, confirm他们请了人后，反而豁然开朗，至少是她直接亲口真心清清楚楚的答复。有些时候，不是因为有很大的幻想还是什么，有时只是想有一点小小的肯定。

不为什么，只因为我在乎。

夜太美

刚才在夜已经很深了的时候回家。
开着小红听着歌在路上奔。原来不到5分钟的回家路程，我特地绕开去另一边兜了一阵风才回家，就是很轻快地跟着speed limit 在直直的路上开着，刚好ipod播的是'The Moment' , repeat 了两回，很喜欢那钢琴前奏还有燕姿的声音。
又或者说我很喜欢在夜里开车兜风。

以前喝完茶，从茶档走后，有时载完老庄阿梁，从百顺开回南巴山庄的那段直路，月光洒下来和路灯汇在一起的时候最美。
我喜欢那种夜里比较谧静的感觉，而如果可以开车听着喜欢的歌曲再加上载着个比月亮还灿烂的女生，那就更好了，可惜每次来来去去大都是那几条MLclub友，哈哈哈。

在这里，上个星期曾经小迷过路，不过倒也还是走了回来。
虽然走了段远路，不过兜兜转转，却还是碰到了一些美丽的风景。